It has been two weeks since I wrote, and my life has changed so much. On October 20, 2020, I moved in with my high school sweetheart and his mom. They live in a camper on the White/Dekalb County line. The insurance company paid off my camper and gave me $1,900.00, so I bought Alexandria’s extra car and moved all my possessions to a climate-controlled storage. It was time for me to go out in the world on my own because being in that bedroom alone brought about depression and, ultimately, suicidal thoughts. Moving out and being around laughter has helped me so much. My living conditions are not ideal for disabled persons but overall, my mental health is 100% better. Alexandria picked me up on October 26, 2020, and I got to spend some time with the boys while she went to the doctor. Austin is still in coronavirus quarantine, but he is doing much better. Ashley called me a whore and blocked me on everything. I really never know how to respond to Ashley when she says such horrible things. Lately, I give it to God and move forward. Moving forward is all I can do right now because it is keeping me alive. Michael and his mom are so kind to me. We might not have much when it comes to material possessions, but we have big hearts and lots of love.
Brittany brought me a lock the other night for the storage building and told me her door was open if we needed a place to stay. My sister Janna also offered me a place to live, but right now I need a quiet place. Janna and even my ex husband’s new brother-in-law came to help me move into the storage building. I am not yet ready to go through everything but I will soon. This has all been a process so I have been easy with myself. “One Day at a Time” is my new motto.
Well I am going to go cuddle up with my Gilmore Girls. It is freezing here today but I prefer it because HS doesn’t hit me so hard.