Tonight I talked to myself. I said,” self, why do you feel the way you do?” Then I said,” self, we have to stop meeting like this because it's one o'clock in the morning”! I laughed because regardless of the predicament I find myself in, sometimes I don't understand why I do the things I do.
Have you ever had a random thought and wondered, “why did I think about that?. I try to ignore my random thoughts and feelings, but sometimes they just come out when I least expect it.
Example 1 ~ When I forget to take my medication, I feel everything. The depression, sadness, and pain flood in, and all I can do is cry myself to sleep.
Example 2 ~ I was watching season three of Anne with an E tonight, and it hit me. I was crying and feeling very sad. I should be happy because it was a beautiful ending.
However, my mind was thinking about how they loved each other in their youth and found each other again.
Right now, in my life, love songs and anything sappy makes me cry. I am still healing, and at times the only music I need are songs of strength! I don’t like feeling weak or sad all the time. My heart is damaged, and I need time to repair the collateral damage.
The million-dollar question came flowing from David’s lips. Why? That is when I decided that our every thought or feeling doesn’t have to be shared. I know this is strange coming from me because I feel talking is a straight path to healing. However, I think it is quite healthy to have a part of yourself that is between you and God. There are times when it is too painful to explain the ”why.”
In 2020 many people are unpredictable and fickle when it comes to relationships. They can move in and out of relationships like someone changing the oil in a car. Don’t judge yourself or punish yourself if you can’t do things that way. You're not always going to understand your own emotions, but they are preciously your own. It is perfectly fine to take time to absorb your thoughts and process them before you share them with someone else. Also, if you're in a new relationship, it is crucial to get to know someone before you give them full access to destroy you!
Final thought: Having relationships built on mutual love and respect is far more valuable than anything in the world.
Have you ever had a random thought and wondered, “why did I think about that?. I try to ignore my random thoughts and feelings, but sometimes they just come out when I least expect it.
Example 1 ~ When I forget to take my medication, I feel everything. The depression, sadness, and pain flood in, and all I can do is cry myself to sleep.
Example 2 ~ I was watching season three of Anne with an E tonight, and it hit me. I was crying and feeling very sad. I should be happy because it was a beautiful ending.
However, my mind was thinking about how they loved each other in their youth and found each other again.
Right now, in my life, love songs and anything sappy makes me cry. I am still healing, and at times the only music I need are songs of strength! I don’t like feeling weak or sad all the time. My heart is damaged, and I need time to repair the collateral damage.
The million-dollar question came flowing from David’s lips. Why? That is when I decided that our every thought or feeling doesn’t have to be shared. I know this is strange coming from me because I feel talking is a straight path to healing. However, I think it is quite healthy to have a part of yourself that is between you and God. There are times when it is too painful to explain the ”why.”
In 2020 many people are unpredictable and fickle when it comes to relationships. They can move in and out of relationships like someone changing the oil in a car. Don’t judge yourself or punish yourself if you can’t do things that way. You're not always going to understand your own emotions, but they are preciously your own. It is perfectly fine to take time to absorb your thoughts and process them before you share them with someone else. Also, if you're in a new relationship, it is crucial to get to know someone before you give them full access to destroy you!
Final thought: Having relationships built on mutual love and respect is far more valuable than anything in the world.
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