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Hate....Is it so bad?

I never use the word hate, but today it was precisely the word I needed to make it clear to someone about my feelings towards a specific person.  After looking it up in Webster's, I feel it was adequate!  After a breakup there are seven levels of grief ~ (1) Desperate for Answers (2) Denial (3) Bargaining (4) Relapse (5) Anger (6) Initial Acceptance (7) Redirected Hope.  It can be even more painful if it was unexpected.  I have been through all of them!  It has been hard, but I am ok. I didn't die, and my life didn't end. I now have peace. I never want to talk to him or see him ever again.  I did nothing to deserve the way in which he handled the entire situation.  So yes, I hate him.  Do I wish him ill will?  No.  I figure God will handle it because God knows the heart.  You will be able to read all about it in my next book, so I don't want to give too much details on my blog.  In a nutshell I talked to him for almost two years, and then we had a private moment and he instantly regretted it.  I responded completely different than I thought I would.  Then a few days later he told me he loved me and then a few weeks later he left me.


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