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Winds of Anxiety

Today my youngest daughter, who is getting a divorce, decided to tell me that she is moving.  So in the next few months, my life is going to be changing again.  I thought she was happy here, but it turns out that she doesn’t want this house or anything to do with her soon to be ex-husband.  She says he is unpredictable and holds money over her head.  I don’t know where I will go or what I will do.  I love my children and grandchildren, but I think it might be time for momma to fly the coop.  My whole life has revolved around them since 1995.  I have my camper back, but I also have David to think about because he is in poor health.  I do not handle change, and my brain doesn’t process it like an average person.  My anxiety and panic hit me hard, and then I start to cry.  Everyone has their own life to live, so tomorrow I will get up and figure out mine.  I was going to let my P.O. Box go, but now I think I will keep it and get a storage building.  I am frightened about my future.

On a positive note, I got to meet Austin's new girlfriend, and she brought me flowers last night when they came for dinner. It was a lovely evening.



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