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F**k ~ F**k ~F**k ~ OMG F**k! Yes, that’s what I repeated over and over today in my head as Dr. Clark confirmed......stage three chronic kidney disease.

Yesterday I got fantastic news. No more brain lesions, but today I get knocked down again with the reality that MS continues to ravage my body. Well, at least something is ravaging my body LMAO! I know I have a dark sense of humor, but it keeps me alive.

I don’t use foul language, but let’s be honest! When you have disabilities, and you’ve had them all your life, sometimes you want to say f**k! My dad used curse words my entire life, and because of what I learned from the Bible, I always tried to refrain from using them. However, today I feel that God probably gives us a free pass on the days we lose all sense of reality!

So don’t judge me! I am having a shitty moment, and I hope to be back to myself tomorrow!

I’m tired of the medicine, and I’m tired of the doctors, I’m tired of it all! I’m also tired of one thing making something else worse!

On top of that, now I have to have what’s in the picture below at home because I might overdose!

I love you all!

Tina

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