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Musical Emotions

I swear I have too much of an emotional attachment to music.  Some songs make me cry.  Do any of you have that problem?  Omg here comes  the tears as Guns~N~Roses sing Patience.  I have always had a strong attachment to music.  As a child, my roots were in bluegrass, country, and southern rock.  In my teenage years, I fell in love with Paula Abdul's dance music, Hard Rock, and Metal.  Then in college, my admiration for Blues, Classical, and Orchestra music blossomed.  As a momma, Casting Crowns cultivated my love for Christian music.  I feel it so profoundly, and many songs can take me right back to a good or bad time within moments of coming on the radio.  I worked in my dad's music for ten years, so I met many musicians who introduced me to Blackgrass, Reggae, Folk, Rap, and Alternative.  Loretta Lynn, Otis Paula, and Metallica will always be my true favorites.

Anyway, enough about me.  How is your day?  I am feeling pretty good.  No MS fog this morning, so I made it to Cookeville.  Austin needed help while he is in California at NAMM.  I love all the pictures and videos he is sending me.  George and David are here, and they almost got inventory finished.  Janna has been here helping me as I navigate my way through paperwork.  I am finding that it is much less stressful when someone isn’t rushing you or calling asking for Z-out totals every five minutes.  I love the way my son runs his business because he is kind to his customers and his family.  I have to admit I was not feeling it when we first headed to Cookeville yesterday, but now I am almost done.  Maybe later I can visit with my sister's children.  Things are working out in every part of my life that truly matters.  I have lived a long life full of ups and downs, but most importantly, I LIVED!


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