I had a good morning taking my shower and doing my makeup. Then I crashed and slept all day. Now it’s 1:23 am, and I am wide awake watching Fox News. Jackson is sound asleep with his grandpa, and Alexandria is on a date. I have made some new friends today who have also written their stories of child abuse. It is so beautiful to see the lives they have now. Despite the horrific violence and depression, they have survived! Every day I try to reach victims who are on the edge of suicide. However, lately, it has been me who needed encouragement. I miss Scott & the boys so much. I hope with therapy, I can work through the emotional pain, but for now, I think finishing the next book will be closing that chapter of my life. I don’t know what my future holds, but I am going to keep dreaming! I hear it might snow tomorrow, and I can't help but think about Scott. We both love snow, Christmas, and coffee. For months I have kept my mouth shut about my feelings so I wouldn