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Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day.  It’s is 9:08, and we are on our way to Cookeville.  I will now be seeing Justin at Dr. Copeland's office.  Today he will be looking at my lipomas in my arm.  It has been years since I had an in-office procedure, but I do not want to be put to sleep anymore.  Since I learned that I have kidney disease, I have been cautious about what I put in my body, which includes medication.  I often tell myself to be easy with myself.  More than ever, I feel self-love is so important.  From the way we talk to ourselves to how we treat our bodies.  It is absolutely crucial that we show ourselves some love because this ole world is harsh.

There is something on my mind this morning.  It has been two days since I deleted social media from my devices. It has given me time to think, and I have concluded that I will not be wasting my time, money, or energy on ungrateful people anymore.  Where is this coming from, you might ask?  My soon to be ex-son-in-law is one of those people who expect you to answer the phone the minute he calls or texts, but getting a response from him is optional.  It’s the lack of respect versus expectation that annoys me.

On a side note, Ashley threatened to get a restraining order if I ever contacted her again.  I have zero clues as to what I did to make her angry now, but I give up trying to figure her out.  She called me crying, begging for help when the kids were sick.  Of course, we ran down there to help.  Ashley was so sweet and loving while David and I cleaned her house, did her laundry, and babysit the children while she and Matthew worked.  However, once she did not need us, she is back to hating us again.

I know Ashley sounds crazy, but I have learned to love her from a distance.  I also stopped answering the phone for anyone except Alex, Austin, Janna, My mom, and my doctors.  The rest of the low life users can pretend they don’t know me 24/7.  I am no longer a convenience.  It takes some work, but it is easy to change your phone number, iCloud, email, and residence before anyone notices.  Deleting social media is simple too.  I no longer delete my account or my content, but my friend's list is tiny.  I have done it a few times in my life.   One day they are stressing you out and the next day total silence because you put a stop to it.

Well, I am done with my appointment, and I will be having the lipomas removed next Friday at 10:00 am.  Janna and Mike took us to lunch at Panda Garden, and it was Yummy! We had chicken on a stick and Chinese donuts.  Jackson didn't eat much, but Charlie is a growing teenage boy, so he is a healthy eater. Alexandria has to work all weekend, so we are headed home to chill with little man.  I think it is beautiful outside, but we honestly need snow.  This rain has been depressing even for the happiest of people.

Here are some pictures of the gorgeous views from Bee Rock in Monterey, Tennessee.  The B & B here is not inviting, but the views are lovely.  We stopped at the bakery for some jalapeño bread and some of the best chocolate chip cookies I’ve ever tasted.  I am thinking more and more about buying a house in Monterey.

My beautiful daughter came in with a new squishy and chocolate shark for Jackson and roses for me.  I feel pretty special right now.  It has been a beautiful day, and David made dinner for everyone.  #blessed



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