Skip to main content

B2 Bombers

I managed to go to sleep around midnight, but I am still not finished.  Brittany brought Kai up to see me, and we had a good time.  I love my grandsons so much.  Timothy and Stormy have stayed a few nights too.  I miss Jackson when he is on his monthly visits with his dad.  He would have loved to see Kai.




I went back on social media today for a few hours.  It tends to clear my mind, but this evening I had a depression hit me that took my breath.  The room was spinning, and I started to cry, and then all the negativity came at me like mini stealth B2 bombers.  Things like “you're worthless,” “you haven’t done anything with your life,” and “you make everyone mad” were front and center. The ”who are you to give anyone advice?” and ”just shut up Tina” came like ocean waves.  It wasn’t a “feel sorry for me” moment.  I felt like shit about myself for a good 30 minutes, and then it passed.  Do you ever have attacks like that?  Well, I am going to sleep.  I love you all!


Tomorrow is a new day.



Comments

Most Popular

We have to stop meeting like this....

Tonight I talked to myself.  I said,” self, why do you feel the way you do?”  Then I said,” self, we have to stop meeting like this because it's one o'clock in the morning”!  I laughed because regardless of the predicament I find myself in, sometimes I don't understand why I do the things I do. Have you ever had a random thought and wondered, “why did I think about that?.  I try to ignore my random thoughts and feelings, but sometimes they just come out when I least expect it. Example 1 ~ When I forget to take my medication, I feel everything.  The depression, sadness, and pain flood in, and all I can do is cry myself to sleep. Example 2 ~ I was watching season three of Anne with an E tonight, and it hit me.  I was crying and feeling very sad.  I should be happy because it was a beautiful ending. However, my mind was thinking about how they loved each other in their youth and found each other again. Right now, in my life, love songs and anythi...

Shefit $10 off Code

http://i.refs.cc/0oBbv8Di?smile_ref=eyJzbWlsZV9zb3VyY2UiOiJzbWlsZV91aSIsInNtaWxlX21lZGl1bSI6IiIsInNtaWxlX2NhbXBhaWduIjoicmVmZXJyYWxfcHJvZ3JhbSIsInNtaWxlX2N1c3RvbWVyX2lkIjo0MjUzODkxMzJ9

Engaged

  You read it right!  I am engaged!  Patrick Flatt is my fiancé!  Life has changed so much since Christmas.  I have never been so in love and felt so much love from any man.  Patrick is the mostly loving and kind man that I have ever known.  Well except for my grandpa Phil and it would be impossible to completely match my grandpa!  We have set a date for September 20, 2026.  I pray we will be able to get married in the church my great grandparents (Stevens) started years ago in Monterey, Tennessee.  I could write all day about the unselfish love Patrick shows me, but you really have to meet him.  Well I am off to spend more time with the grandchildren. Much Love, Tina Louise