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Sleepy Day

I had a good morning taking my shower and doing my makeup.  Then I crashed and slept all day.  Now it’s 1:23 am, and I am wide awake watching Fox News.  Jackson is sound asleep with his grandpa, and Alexandria is on a date.  I have made some new friends today who have also written their stories of child abuse.  It is so beautiful to see the lives they have now.  Despite the horrific violence and depression, they have survived!  Every day I try to reach victims who are on the edge of suicide.  However, lately, it has been me who needed encouragement.  I miss Scott & the boys so much.  I hope with therapy, I can work through the emotional pain, but for now, I think finishing the next book will be closing that chapter of my life.  I don’t know what my future holds, but I am going to keep dreaming!

I hear it might snow tomorrow, and I can't help but think about Scott.  We both love snow, Christmas, and coffee.  For months I have kept my mouth shut about my feelings so I wouldn't upset those around me, but I will not go back to a place of silence.  I will be honest with myself and my readers.  If you learn nothing from me other than to speak your truth, then I will feel more than accomplished.  There comes a time to live your life for you because you have spent years living it for everyone else.

I probably won’t blog much for the next month.  I have work to get done, and my health is unpredictable right now.  If I do any social media, it will probably be on TikTok.

You all keep safe out there with the coronavirus and election.  I stay home 98% of the time, and I can vote just a few minutes from the house.  I feel pretty fortunate to be able to avoid the craziness.  I am Republican, so I get hate for that online, but I try to keep the peace.  Freewill and respect play a big part in allowing others to enjoy their constitutional rights.  I don't post ugliness either because I figure enough people are doing that, plus I am a lover, not a fighter these days.

Love~Laughter~Truth


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