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2021


“I want the pain to stop so bad.  It is the emotional pain, flashbacks, racing thoughts that have been getting me since the funeral.  Some people use drugs or drink, but sex has always been my vice, and it has been years since it was a problem.”  

I want so badly to just open up and tell you every little detail about my dating horrors of the last three years, but two of the men have passed away.  Therefore, out of respect for their families, I will not go into detail about them.  I don't want to use my experiences to hurt anyone.  A few of the men I have dated have become great friends.  I just blocked a man who didn't even know me but decided it was a good idea to tell me that I have nice boobs.  I want to scream at the insanity.  

I always try to see the best in anyone I meet, but it gets harder and harder these days.

Let us go back to where it all started.  David passed away on 10/7/2020.  I was a hot mess and completely out of control.  I was living with our daughter and she was understandably upset that I was talking to my old high school boyfriend Michael Prater.  My daughter and I got into a fight so I moved in with Michael for a few days in his camper before coming to my senses and moving in with my sister.  

“Unknowingly he was an alcoholic, and so I was mauled by a drunk who I trusted to be sheltered from the storm.  I left Halloween night after he started screaming at me for being online too much.  

Then I came across Facebook dating and I ran into Jason Denton.  He was a real piece of work.  From bed bugs to roaches the guy had them.  He was homeless with three children in high school.  My daughter needed to sell her house and he offered to buy it so we all moved in together.  BIG...HUGE..MISTAKE  He brought so much emotional baggage, that it all blew up one evening.  I told him to leave and so he did.  The last time I saw him was in December 2020.  

After Jason, I went back to Facebook dating.  I was searching for someone like my late husband but I found nothing but trouble.  

Then I decided not to date, so I remained single for a month.  On January 11, 2020, I went to Liberty, Tennessee, to see Shane Agee because he can’t drive due to narcolepsy.  Shane was another one to maul, but he went all the way.  The next day he ghosted me.  

(I am going to stop here and write about a few of them each day) 

David has been gone for three years.  I have yet to find a man that can even compare to all his good qualities.  He was a wonderful grandfather and he really loved me.  During the 22 years that we knew each other, we had problems but the last year of our marriage was amazing.  Yes, it was during the pandemic too.  

So, now have three years of dating experience, and starting today I will share every last story.  I am currently single.  I just broke up with Bob Nutt.  It was probably the worst experience of my life. His mood swings were insane and he had kinks that were horrifying.  I pray I never see him again.  


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