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I can’t believe David has been gone for five weeks and two days.  I am safe sleeping on my sister's couch!  My baby sister and her husband are buying their first home, so right after Christmas, we will be moving.  I am so excited for them, but I can’t help think we won’t be in the house where David visited anymore. I miss him so much.  I am reading a book by Kim Murdock titled “Feeling Left Behind.”   It is helping me grieve, which is a never-ending roller coaster of emotion.  My friends on TikTok keep me laughing when I feel like dying.  I know moving will help me as it will be a fresh start.  I put on David's 2x Florida Gators hoddie today, and I felt how much weight I have lost.  Sometimes I can't eat for nausea.  I am not a drinker, but I feel the need for some Jack Daniels.  I have gone to the storage building once, and I had a major anxiety attack.  Death sucks, and you have to take the emotions as they come, or you will never work through them.  I love you all - Tina

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