Good Morning and Happy Thanksgiving. I am here in Cookeville visiting my family. We had our dinner yesterday because my sister had to work today. I have had so much fun with my nieces and nephews, so I should be happy and thankful...right? I am sad to report that I am depressed. I miss David so much and I know he would want me to be happy, but I want to run home and lock out the world. I hate for people to see me cry especially when they are having a good time.
Well, I have to cheer up because my son is getting married on December 1, 2021, to an amazing young woman who has become a daughter to me. It will be another reminder that I am alone but my niece offered to be my plus one and she is so excited.
On the dating scene, I am about to give up. I have spoken to more men than I ever wanted to and the dates have been horrible. I have a story to write about it, but it just keeps getting worse. I fell in love with Nicolas but he couldn't or wouldn't reciprocate my feelings. The decision not to date is rather easy after everything I have encountered. I spent an hour deleting numbers and blocking men on Facebook. I just do not care to hear their spill anymore. It is all smoke and mirrors. The lines get worse and worse with each hello in my chatbox. Are there any men left that want to love a good woman? I pray that there is because right now I feel hopeless.