I am back home in the mountains. I collapsed when I got into my apartment. Lucky for me I have friends here in Wartburg. David unloaded my car and Jerry made sure I had hot coffee. I have been in tears for hours since the loneliness set in. I’m telling you that this kind of loneliness cannot be fixed with friends or family! The yearning to want to embrace someone who loves me is agonizing. I don’t have a person anymore and while I will survive and live a content life, this pain is slowly killing me. I wish I had more positive words but tonight I am longing for something more than sex, and much more than friendship.