I am 100% not ok. The life I dream of and the current situation couldn’t be further apart. Family is good. My health is not so good. My relationship with Patrick isn't very good. I feel like a big fat failure. I know it isn’t all my fault but in times like these, I tend to blame myself for everything. What could I have done differently? What did I do so wrong? For now, I have given it to God. I know despite myself getting in the way, that God will handle this situation and I will be ok after the dust settles. On a different subject, I promise I am coming out of writer's block. Book 2 is done….just needs editing Much Love Tina Louise