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Catch up

Hello readers!  Sorry, it has been a few days since I wrote—time to play catch-up.


Today is March 9, 2020, and I just got a text from Alexandria of the ultrasound photo taken this morning.  Jeremiah is growing and set to make his grand entrance in June 2020.  I love you all and pray your safe with your family.  Always remember to take time to sit in your favorite chair and reflect on your life.  



March 8, 2020, was a beautiful day.  We spent time outside with Jackson, and I downloaded some of my favorite songs from iTunes.  I am so thankful to be alive and to be called Grandma!  I took a break from social media too.  #sittinginmychair 


March 7, 2020, I got up and showered so I would be ready when Janna arrived to drive me to Cookeville for Jackson’s birthday party.  We went down Jackson street and turned right on Highway 70.  My heart dropped when I realized just how close the tornado hit to where I lived a few months ago.  Later we went to the birthday party, and I had a great time visiting with Gary, Jody, Emily, Donald, Daniel, Mackenzie, Bella, Austin, Lauren, Kai, David, Janna, Stormy, Charlie, Timothy, Samantha, Alexandria, and Jackson.  Ashley came for a second, but she wouldn’t stay because I was there.  I don’t know why she is mad, but I have given that situation to God.  



March 6, 2020, was Jackson’s birthday.  David stayed up the night before putting Jackson’s train table together, and Stormy helped me make mini cupcakes.  President Trump visited Tennessee and stopped in Cookeville to access the damage and promise financial help.  It was a good day relaxing at home.  The news reports are mainly about the elections and Coronavirus.  People are starting to get scared, and the stock market is playing yo-yo.  I am thanking God over and over again for my blessings.  


March 5, 2020, was another day in bed, and Alexandria left to go buy a goat for Jackson’s birthday or so I thought.  She came home with a new Kitty.  I named her Bella, and she sure cheered me up.  In the last year, all four of my boys (cats) have gone missing, and Bella made my heart less heavy.  


March 4, 2020, was hard for me.  I was still in shock at how close the tornado came to my sister and children’s home.  I thanked God about a million times and hugged my grandson a little tighter.  


March 3, 2020, would bring the second deadliest tornado in Cookeville’s history, killing 18 people.  I am still very sad, but ever so thankful that my children survived with no damage.  The outpouring of love and support from the community is unimaginable.   It was also my nephew's birthday and Super Tuesday.  I made myself get out of the house and go vote after I was for sure that my children were safe.  


March 2, 2020, was a typical day.  The news was reporting rain and storms, so I was up all night paying attention to the weather.  My sister sent me this picture after midnight.  I was a total mess with worry, so I never went to bed.


March 1, 2020, was a lazy day at home.  I stayed in bed, resting from the day before.  I always pay physically when I have any fun.  #multiplesclerosismonth #awareness  


February 29, 2020 - David babysat Kai, Jackson, Charlie, Stormy, Timothy & Samantha so that Alexandria me & Janna could have a girls day out.  Alexandria took us to a toy store in Knoxville and to lunch at Olive Garden.  I got tired out, but I had a blast.  When we got home, I hung out with my grandsons, nieces & nephews.  It was an overall great day!  


February 28, 2020- Sick Day & Nurse Visit from TennCare 


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