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Good is an understatement!  I am on cloud nine and enjoying every single minute!  Christopher and I celebrated Charlie and Jackson's birthday, indulged in ice cream, camped in the backyard, and got our first shots of the new vaccine!  I got to spend the day with Kai and visit with Jerimiah too!  He is getting so big now.  Ashley Land had another beautiful baby girl, and I got to hold her at the party.  Kids grow up so fast :(

I have almost finished my screenplay for Cabin 10, and soon I will publish my second book.  I am back focusing on my work when my health allows.

This week's big news is that I sat down with detective Duke and now every aspect of abuse from my childhood was reported to the police.  All the criminal activity I saw as a teenager is officially in a police report.  I feel 100% better knowing I am closing that chapter of my life!  

I am looking forward to the future, trying to ignore the negative!  What negative, you might ask?  Well, Ashley is back at her old tricks, and she had the police serve me with a court date for a hearing on an Order of Protection.  Nothing in her statement is the truth!  It makes me sad to know my daughter has fallen prey to the wolves!  I remember being in her shoes not too long ago with my dad.  He used me until I had nothing left to give!  My dad started texting me hours before Detective Duke came to my residence.  I showed all the messages to the police.  I do pray my father tells the truth for once in his life!  

If you can come to the Order of Protection hearing, it is 9 am this Tuesday at the General Sessions Court, Putnam County, Tennessee.



Much Love, 
Tina 








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