Sitting in my Chair

Looks fade, sexual desire fades but how someone treats you never fades. 

I have been beside myself with worry since I learned that Ashley, Matthew, Ellie, and Elijah have covid-19.  Then Ashley had an ER visit but they sent her home.  Janna messaged me that Ellie had RSV and Covid so I haven't slept much.  I continue to light candles and pray.  I want to wrap my arms around them and be there when they need a sip of water or a warm blanket.  Yesterday I was sent a picture of Ashley in the ER and I had a total meltdown.  It looked just like the pictures David sent me.  She had on the B-pap which isn't a good sign.  I feel so helpless because there is nothing I can do.  I want to be there and hold her while she sleeps.  I know she is a grown woman but she will always be my baby!!!!  Matthew 17:17 & 18  Then Jesus answered and said, O faithless and perverse generation, how long shall I be with you? how long shall I suffer you? bring him hither to me.  18) And Jesus rebuked the devil, and he dep...

As a writer, I have always lived by the philosophy that if people wanted you to write warmly about them then they should behave warmly.  However, sometimes writing about my personal experiences can be daunting.  I want to share the good, bad, and ugly with you so you can know the whole story, but some parts of the story are best left unspoken.   Here is my part of the story... I started talking to Nick through Facebook dating on July 25, 2021.  Over the last month I allowed things to flow naturally.  I let him into my life and gave him complete trust and access to my heart.  I let my guard down.  From July 25th to August 25th Nick had all of me.  I refused to let others' past transgressions spill into this new relationship.  We were exchanging "I love you's" and we became intimate within the first week. We were talking about marriage and babies too. I know you're probably thinking we were insane, but everything felt right.  We laughed an...

My first bit of bad news is that I have several projects in the works but I can't afford to publish them.   I had a bad week overall with my health and I broke up with my boyfriend.  We are still talking but it is not the same as it was before I ended it.  Of course, he doesn't feel he did anything wrong, but I remember how it felt being the worried girlfriend at home.  I thought I could handle it but now I know truly how difficult it will be to be alone all the time.  He continues to tell me that he told me his plans that night, but I honestly do not remember him telling me.   I am not trying to be belligerent but hell fire it is hard enough dating a truck driver who is home maybe 30 days a year!  We just started our relationship so I am trying to keep up while handling MS fog.  Yes, I am venting here so do not take anything I say as advice.  Dating in 2021 is hard, not to mention dating after being married for over two decades.  I...

Hey, fans let's just say I didn't let my last dating fiasco keep me down.  I met a man named Nicolas Adair.  I packed my bags, and he took me over the road in his semi.  It was an exciting adventure.  Nick is a tall, dark-headed man with beautiful brown eyes.  To say that I am in love is an understatement.  The man has so much knowledge and can hold his own in any conversation.  We talked for hours and hours about anything and everything.  I got to visit Kentucky, Indiana, and Illinois.  The only downside to being on the truck is not having a toilet exactly when you want one and the bed is a little small.  However, being with Nick out on the open road made me so happy.  His dog Max is a love bug and very protective.   One night while Nick was sleeping I was upfront reading when I looked over to see a driver pouring out something from a large container.  It was one of those times I wish I had not let something catch my...