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18 Wheels & A Dozen Roses


Hey, fans let's just say I didn't let my last dating fiasco keep me down.  I met a man named Nicolas Adair.  I packed my bags, and he took me over the road in his semi.  It was an exciting adventure.  Nick is a tall, dark-headed man with beautiful brown eyes.  To say that I am in love is an understatement.  The man has so much knowledge and can hold his own in any conversation.  We talked for hours and hours about anything and everything.  I got to visit Kentucky, Indiana, and Illinois.  The only downside to being on the truck is not having a toilet exactly when you want one and the bed is a little small.  However, being with Nick out on the open road made me so happy.  His dog Max is a love bug and very protective.  

One night while Nick was sleeping I was upfront reading when I looked over to see a driver pouring out something from a large container.  It was one of those times I wish I had not let something catch my eye, because then he flashed his penis at me while asking if I wanted to fuck.  Nick got up and handled it and I went back to sleep.  I have never felt so safe and protected.  I can't wait to see him again.   

On a somber note, my life, in general, is like living in heaven and hell simultaneously!   I am still grieving David.  I want to call him and tell him about this wonderful man I have found, but my best friend is gone.  October 7, 2021, will be a year since he left this world.  He would love Nick and I know in a different situation they would be friends.  

Ashley still hasn't allowed me to visit so I tear up anytime I think about Elijah or Ellie.  The other women in my family keep me updated the best they can, but my heart cried out to call them.  

Well, I am off to bed.  

Much Love

Tina Louise #sittinginmychair 

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