Sitting in my Chair

  We are fixing to ring in 2023 and I am feeling much better today!  I couldn’t sleep last night so I left out and headed to Cookeville this morning around 4am.  My baby sister was up making coffee so we chatted before she left for work. After I got settled I hung out with the kids most of the day.  Pre-teens sure have all the latest family gossip.  They also don’t care to share their view point on my daughter calling me Tina instead of momma.  Apparently it is very disrespectful.  I couldn’t agree more but it doesn’t surprise me.   This afternoon I went live on TikTok this evening and chatted with friends.   Richard and I have never stopped speaking.  We are going into our seventh month of knowing each other.  I love him more today than ever before.  He has truly become my best friend.   Happy New Years  Much Love Tina Louise 

 

  Merry Christmas to all my readers!  I am alone this year because of my health.  Not being able to drive has been a real bummer!  I sure miss my family right now.  Earlier tonight I fixed a sweet potato and watched a movie.  I’m blessed to be alive and have wonderful friends in my life.  I have learned so much this year about being truly independent while battling Multiple Sclerosis.  Just when I thought I would break, God gave me the strength to keep going.  I pray all is well with you.  You can still email me if you need to talk.  I am a good listener and I understand the heartaches of this holiday season alone. I love you all very much. Merry Christmas  Tina Louise 

  I turned 45 yesterday and it was an awesome day!  It all started on Wednesday with a trip to the salon.  I got my hair cut, dipped nails, pedicure and eyebrows waxed!  Then I saw the chiropractor for my daily pop.  Yesterday started at midnight when Richard Videochatted me to wish me Happy Birthday.  I fell back asleep and woke up to a sweet message from my loving daughter in law Lauren.  Then I had hot coffee, and a biscuit from Hardee’s.   After that I went to town and picked up my birthday cake.  Throughout the day I got loving messages from friends on Facebook and text from my momma, sister and Brittany.  Jerry and Jan bought be a Keurig for my birthday/Christmas so I had snickers coffee with my chocolate cake!  My day ended with a beautiful FaceTime call from Kane and a phone call from my son!  I feel so blessed and loved!   Merry Christmas  Much Love Tina Louise 

  I am so fucking sick of being the nice one!  Even when I wrote my autobiography I was nice.  I could have made folk's eyes bleed, but I didn't.  I choose to be the better person!   I am sick of taking the blame for the bastards who hurt my daughters!  I was left to pick up the pieces of their broken souls!  Plus I worked three jobs and remained the constant in their lives, when others jumped ship!  I did the very best I could!  I made mistakes because I'm not fucking perfect! Now when I need my daughters they hate me.  Now I am the evil villain.  No more!   I’m not staying around for this bullshit.  I am not the family punching bag!  I damn sure ain’t gonna move back closer to it.  I did my job I raised my kids, and now that David- is gone, I see no reason for me to stick around!  I have no desire to be trash-talked and blamed for my daughter's bad life decisions!   What about my son?  He helped ...

I don’t understand what’s going on with my daughters or why I can’t see my grandchildren.  For the last two years, I have been so lonely.  Losing David sent me into a very dark place, but what happened afterward lead me to this very moment.   Have you ever grieved someone who is that still alive?  Every day I grieve my daughters, and their children.  They are alive and well, but they have no time for me.  My son works so much that’s it’s been a year since he came to visit.  I can’t drive long distances anymore so I can’t drive to them, plus gas is ridiculous. It’s just me and Hannah all alone.  I have tried to find love, and I’ve given several men the opportunity to have a relationship with me.  However, I think I must be unlovable.  It seems most men just want is sex.  Jeffrey was the exception but he also passed away.  I’ve actually lost two boyfriends, one to Covid and one to a heart attack.  I feel like a being punishe...

  After 5 months I broke things off with Richard.  He is a good friend and nice guy but not so good at dating.  I won't go into details but this was the healthiest choice I could make for myself right now.  We live five hours from one another and I learned that I hate long-distance relationships. Anyway enough about that.   The picture is my Christmas tree this year.  I want to give a special shout out to my neighbors David, Jerry and Vivian for picking it up at the tree farm and helping me decorate my beautiful tree.  It means so much to me!   Life has calmed down so much since the doctor put me on bed rest.  I was forced to take care of myself and not worry about the rest of the world.  I did spend Thanksgiving away from my family but my neighbors enjoyed my cooking.  I made my first turkey by myself and it was wonderful!  My kids didn't even call me, but my mom, sister and grandson called on Facetime.  Jackson made my d...