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Endings and Beginnings

Since I was a teenager, I have been educated to the ins and outs of child custody and divorce.  I am 42 years old, and I have four divorces under my belt.  However, today I felt deep sadness when my baby girl handed me her final divorce papers.  I never wanted my children to experience divorce!  They had been through enough of it growing up.  Not only do I feel like a failure as a wife, but also as a mom.  I feel like I didn’t equip them with the tools they needed to find a faithful spouse or the tools they would need to weather the storms.  I know it isn’t my fault, but the guilt still creeps in when these things happen to your children.

My mother, sister, and I talked about how we felt tremendous failure during and after our divorces.  I do pray my daughter doesn’t feel like a failure because she tried many times to make it work.  Sometimes it is the only way out of a toxic situation.  My son filed his last week, so it is a double whammy this year.  

It isn’t just in my family, either.  I have several friends getting divorced this year.  Maybe it's the financial stress or the quarantine?  Between the upcoming elections and family stress, I feel like the entire world needs a vacation!

Me?  Well, I am going to shut off all electronics and play with my grandson.  He loves my dinosaur growl!  I suggest this for anyone fighting depression.

Much Love,



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