Yesterday was a relaxing day at home. Today was bittersweet because it was my sister’s last day as my caregiver. She brought baby tigger for a visit, and when Alexandria finishes school, I will be able to have cats again. For now, I am living with her and being her live-in nanny. She is working and going to school. I am content with my current life choices, but I miss having a cat!!!!!
I don’t know how to explain it, but I sat out on the porch in the sun today, and I felt free. Free of the past. Free of the worry and stress from closing the music stores. I am no longer financially responsible for anyone but myself. I am free from the religious cult. Free from my dad’s abuse and free from the guilt laid upon me by Ashley for being disabled.
Now I simply responsible for me, and I am good enough for myself. I feel I have time in my life now for myself, which is not something I am used to having. I have been working and raising kids all of my adult life. Today I found myself speaking softer and feeling at peace.
If you have read my book and keep up with my life, then I am sure you want to know what happened after I left the mountain. I am working on a 12 chapter book that will tell my story, January through December 2019.
Of course the world events are on my mind, but when I turn the lights out, and fall asleep to Gilmore Girls the world as I know it melts away. I am walking the streets of Stars Hallow asking Rory about her baby. In times like these I know it is a struggle to get from one day to the next, but I can promise you it is worth it! You will feel a million hugs, and laughs if you simply hang on and trust God to guide you through the storms.
Love~Laughter~Truth
Tina
I don’t know how to explain it, but I sat out on the porch in the sun today, and I felt free. Free of the past. Free of the worry and stress from closing the music stores. I am no longer financially responsible for anyone but myself. I am free from the religious cult. Free from my dad’s abuse and free from the guilt laid upon me by Ashley for being disabled.
Now I simply responsible for me, and I am good enough for myself. I feel I have time in my life now for myself, which is not something I am used to having. I have been working and raising kids all of my adult life. Today I found myself speaking softer and feeling at peace.
If you have read my book and keep up with my life, then I am sure you want to know what happened after I left the mountain. I am working on a 12 chapter book that will tell my story, January through December 2019.
Of course the world events are on my mind, but when I turn the lights out, and fall asleep to Gilmore Girls the world as I know it melts away. I am walking the streets of Stars Hallow asking Rory about her baby. In times like these I know it is a struggle to get from one day to the next, but I can promise you it is worth it! You will feel a million hugs, and laughs if you simply hang on and trust God to guide you through the storms.
Love~Laughter~Truth
Tina
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