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So yesterday morning, Amerigroup calls and my Choices was reinstated.  I was blown away until my new care coordinator called and said TennCare decided not to unenroll anyone during the COVID pandemic.  I said, so once the virus is over, I will have to go through this again?  He said probably so I said NO THANK YOU!

My sister already has a job that she starts in a few weeks, and I have already begun to do everything for myself other than driving.  I might be slow and eat a ton of watermelon, but I am just fine!  I honestly think the insurance is afraid of a lawsuit because they discriminated against me when they set requirements that I could never meet for their program.

My life is good and peaceful.  I have enough to worry about taking care of my health problems.  On good days I do all I can to be a mom, grandma, and friend.  The whole court battle put stress on me that I did not need. I won't go through that again!

The doctors have told me for years to avoid stress and things that cause my anxiety.  I am finally at a place in my life where I have illuminated the drama and weight that made it hard to breathe.  I wholeheartedly believe that writing my autobiography and removing myself from toxic situations was the start of my healing.

I don't know if you are following the news, but more and more sex offenders are being arrested.  The virus seems to be nonexistent in my community, but the news is flooded with it and President Trump. If I want local news or even state news, I have to go to Facebook pages that I follow.  I miss the days when you could trust ABC news.  I don't even watch Good Morning America anymore and loved that show!

Well, I am off to bed.




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