I don’t understand what’s going on with my daughters or why I can’t see my grandchildren. For the last two years, I have been so lonely. Losing David sent me into a very dark place, but what happened afterward lead me to this very moment. Have you ever grieved someone who is that still alive? Every day I grieve my daughters, and their children. They are alive and well, but they have no time for me. My son works so much that’s it’s been a year since he came to visit. I can’t drive long distances anymore so I can’t drive to them, plus gas is ridiculous. It’s just me and Hannah all alone. I have tried to find love, and I’ve given several men the opportunity to have a relationship with me. However, I think I must be unlovable. It seems most men just want is sex. Jeffrey was the exception but he also passed away. I’ve actually lost two boyfriends, one to Covid and one to a heart attack. I feel like a being punished, and I don’t know what I did. I have done everything not to