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Eight Days

Wow, it's been a crazy eight days here on the Mountain. I have been in bed sick for the majority of it. This past Friday, I had the MRI on my knee and X-rays on my hip. Hopefully, those test results will be back tomorrow. I have tried to avoid the outside world and keep to my little bubble at home, but the news gets worse every day. This morning I heard of more murders last night.  I just don't understand all the hostility.

Saturday, Austin and Lauren came to visit, and they got David a new grill for Father's Day! We all sat outside and grilled hamburgers. They brought Kai and man has he grown! He is so loving and follows Jackson around like his best buddy. Kai looks like the perfect football all player when he runs. He was so excited to see the baby too.

Tyler even came to visit, so we had dinner as a family. I hear from Jessica and CJ almost every day via Snapchat. I sure hope we get to visit soon and meet Chloe! Jeremiah is growing like a weed, and Jackson talks up a storm! He often tells me about his adventures with his dad. This week while riding the razor, they saw a big potbelly pig. Alexandria is doing good and even has a job lined up for when the doctor releases her to work.   

Ashley is still in her mood, and so I haven't seen Ellie or Elijah in 6 months. She didn't even call David on Father's Day. Ashley called me a bitch via text message the other day because I told her to mind her business. She was texting Jeremiah's father and the paternal grandmother behind her sisters back. I understand why Alexandria got upset with Ashley. I was woken up at 1:00 am because Ashley had got into a texting war with Alexandria. I think Ashley is destroying the relationships she has within our family, and I want to be left out of her drama! 

I felt like an orphan on Father's Day because I haven't spoken to my father in over a year. I have saved that story for my next book. 

Today I went with David to his doctor in Byrdstown. I didn't want him to be alone if he got more bad news from all the lab work they did at his last appointment. I am glad I did because he has Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever. So, he will be on more medication. 

I find that life has been so busy that I often forget my phone. If you have emailed, please know I will get back to you soon! Remember, love, laughter, and the truth will keep you sane in these uncertain times!

Much love,

Tina




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