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So Confused

Today was like any other day, but I got a text from Janna that she is coming to get me Sunday to visit Ellie and Elijah.  Of course, I want to go, but I am confused.  Why do I have to go to my sisters to visit my grandchildren?  Why wasn’t David invited?  So many questions that I usually wouldn’t ask, but the more I grow, the less I tolerate irrational behavior in my life.  I don’t know why she has kept my grandchildren away from me for almost six months.  I don’t know why she told me in an email that I would never see them again.  Should I ignore it all and just enjoy a visit with my grandchildren?  I probably will because I miss them so much, but it is very confusing to me that she told my sister “baby steps” today.  I have never hurt my grandchildren, and anytime she attempts to argue, I walk away or leave the situation, so my grandchildren don’t have to see folks fight.

Maybe one day I will understand what’s going on with my daughter, but for now, I am giving it to God.  He knows what’s best for me, and I dare not question him any more.      

Speaking of David, he went to see doctor Todd today in Byrdstown, and his doctor told him that he has progressive neuropathy.  So the doctor added medication and ordered a ton of tests.  He has to go back in two weeks.  He got a letter from Social Security today, and it says they will notify him in writing 75 days before his hearing.  I am sure his lawyer is on top of everything, but the government sure takes their sweet time helping the disabled.  It doesn’t shock me anymore, because I hear horror stories every day about how the disabled get treated.

On the upside of life, my new grandson is perfect, and Alexandria is healing from all the blood taps.  Her head and back have been awful.

My mom came to visit yesterday!  We had the best time talking and laughing at memories of when my children were little.  It’s hard to believe that she is a great-grandma.



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