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Reflecting

Someone reminded me today that I have not been myself in a long time.  I was never one to post anything negative about another person online, but I have allowed ugly people to taint my personality.  The anger has gotten to me, and the pain has been overwhelming.  In my autobiography, I was so careful not to name anyone by their legal name, and even when I vent on my blog or TikTok, I try to avoid using people's real names until recently.

Now I just don’t care anymore.  The ones I write negatively about didn’t care enough about me not to hurt me.  Common sense is if you want people to see you as a kind person, then I guess you should treat people with kindness.  Furthermore, never has any of the people I speak about stopped pointing out my flaws or gossiping about me.  Things always get back to me because I am not a fake ass friend.  I believe in being honest and loyal, and when someone thinks I should be aware of something, they tell me.

I have written my truth 12/22/1977-today, and I am moving forward in my life.  I am walking away from toxic and embracing those who genuinely love me for who I am.

On a good note, I had an enjoyable day relaxing at home.  Life is effortless, but I love simple!  I have lost 47 pounds and only 197 to go!  I hate being fat.  I am losing without surgery and diet.  I am only eating in moderation and doing light exercises like dance and lifting my weights.

I love your faces, and I hope you have a marvelous week!  Stay safe, my friends!



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