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Early Morning

I can’t sleep.  Alexandria’s labor started, so she has been at the hospital all night with her dad.  She is now back home in bed, trying to rest because the contractions were not moving labor along, and since she is only 37 weeks, they could not break her water.  I didn’t realize that the baby could be down, you could be 90% effaced and having regular contractions and still get sent home.  Insurance companies are crazy these days, making doctors walk a tight rope.

Jackson fell asleep with no problem, but I haven’t closed my eyes.  I think instead of a crash landing, I am on a semi upswing due to the unpredictable nature of Multiple Sclerosis.  I never know from one day to the next how I will feel.  Since Sunday, I have been less disabled physically, but my brain has been foggy.  Today for the first time, I had an MS hug, aka vice grip around both my ribs.  I would have to lay down for fifteen minutes before they would ease up.  So I was up and down every hour today between the desk and the bed.  My sister is like my right hand when she is here, and I don’t know my life would be majorly depressing if I didn’t have her here to help me.

We talked today more about our plans to settle in Monterey.  It is on the Mountain, and the drive isn’t bad to Crossville, Jamestown, Sparta, McMinnville, and Cookeville, which is where all our immediate family lives.  I had almost decided to move to North Carolina Saturday, but I know I would miss my kids and grandchildren too much.  The Smoky Mountains are only a few hours away up 1-40, so, for now, I think Monterey would be a perfect fit.  We are going to start looking for land.  It will take a few years, but that is now our goal.  We had a long talk the other day, and no matter what our relationship status is or what our kids are doing at the end of the day, it’s always been, Tina and Janna.  We are sisters and probably closer than any friendship we ever had.  Plus, we aren’t getting any younger, and her husband is 20 years her senior.  I know she worries about her future because Mike has had so many heart surgeries and refuses to give up Pepsi or cigarettes.

I have been playing with the camera, and I think we are going to start back Vlogging and doing a weekly Podcast for grandmothers.  Again it all depends on my health, but nothing in life is a guarantee.  Something or someone can always screw up perfectly good plans.


I hope you have a wonderful day!

Much Love

Tina


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