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Escape

For years I made excuses for those I loved.  In the end, I was the only one hurt and forever scared by their decisions.  I mourn the loss of relationships due to differences of opinion over religion.  However, tonight after listening to a fellow warrior, I decided to view things differently.  Instead of grieving the loss and blaming myself, I now see that I escaped a horrible situation.  I am now free of brainwashing and indoctrination! Shunning me because I don’t fit into your spiritual ideology doesn't make you a better person than me.  We are still family, and I still love you no matter how much you treat me like a stranger.  I will still treat you the same way I always have with love and respect.

I love my life now, and despite years of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse, I survived, and I have a beautiful family.  Life will never be perfect, but it is a life free of shame, guilt, and abuse.  I can breathe again, and I feel God's love more now than I ever did!  As an American Citizen, I am free, and as a child of God, I am free.  It is the best feeling when you know your choices are made free of manipulation.  You own them, and that is what God gave everyone.  FREEWILL

On to more cheerful topics...Today my shirt arrived from Jammin at Hippie Jacks, and my new medicine came to treat the Hidradenitis Suppurativa.  I take two injections a week for five weeks, then it only once a month.  Also, I got a letter, and after all the stress, the court received the appeal of my Tenncare Choices, and now we wait for another hearing.  The good news is I still have care services while waiting on the hearing.

I hope you have a marvelous day!

Love ~ Laughter ~ Truth

Much Love

Tina






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