I had a telephone appointment with my doctor earlier, and I have hurt my knee. I don’t know how I injured it, but now I have to go for an MRI of my knee. Dr. Elizondo has retired, so I will have to see a different orthopedic doctor. I also had a fainting spell, and barely made it to my bed this morning. Then my arms started shaking and I cried. It is a horrible feeling to lose your abilities. It happened right after I got the PAE in my email this morning. I signed them, and sent them back to Amerigroup. I believe stress can kill a person, so if you can avoid it I suggest you do if your already living with disabilities. This whole COVID-19 and quarantine has been stressful enough for those of us with compromised immune systems.
On the sunny side of the street my beautiful daughter is due with Jeremiah on June 7th but the doctors don’t think she will last another week. She is doing some major nesting cleaning every square inch of her house. David hung a new flag on the house this morning and Jackson took a good nap today. He looked up at the sky and said big cloud nanny. I love seeing the world through his eyes. It is a much nicer place filled with excitement and wonder. Austin’s music store is looking great and Kai is growing like a weed. Everyone is busy and I just try to stay out of their way and watch.
I feel like such a burden because I can’t jump up and keep the way I could 12 years ago when we loaded metal on the back of the truck to sell in Morristown. Those days seem so long ago. I try to keep my mind on today and forget the past but everyday the memories good and bad creep in when I least expect it.
I don’t know why you read my blog or follow my story, but I want you to know I appreciate it, and I pray something I have done or said can help you on your journey.
Hannah enjoyed the sun today :)