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Wildfires by Of Colours

Today has been a chill day at home.  I gave Alexandria her daily maternity massage, and then Janna helped me get ready for the day.  I love essential oils, and my hands love them too.  I chatted with friends while eating watermelon and listening to music.  If you get a chance to listen to Wildfires by Of Colours, they are fantastic.  My love for music continues to grow. Oh...also check out Alazka and their song Phoenix.

Jackson is with his dad for the next four days, and David went fishing.  He doesn’t get much free time when little man is home because Jackson loves his pawpaw!  Alexandria is still in labor.  The doctor did another sweep of her membranes this morning and said she dilated to four, and he said the hospital was wrong.  She is only 50% effaced.  The doctor said Jeremiah was at the door but didn't seem to want to leave his mommy!  I have learned more about labor than I ever thought possible during her pregnancy, and it isn't as scary as I remembered it to be when I had kids.

I finished the evening by doing my nails.  I love the new dip color,” Bright Latte.”  It goes perfectly with my love for coffee!

I have a nasty muscle locked up in my right shoulder blade, so I am going to bed early tonight.

Much Love

Tina







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