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Happy Mother's Day

Good afternoon!  I pray you had a wonderful day with your mom.  I know the COVID-19 has made it hard for many to visit their moms this year.  I don't know the whole truth behind the entire virus situation, but I know it has to be horrible not getting to see your mom. My heart goes out to you if you're in this situation.  My Facebook timeline was full of many people sending ”I love you” to their moms in heaven, which made me thankful to have my mom, but it also made me think about my age and know that one day I will possibly be sharing in those same posts.

My Mother’s Day week has some beautiful and sad moments.  On Wednesday, my mom came up for the day.  She was having a private family crisis, so she had stayed the night with my sister.  Everything is back to normal now, but I did enjoy visiting with mom. I waxed her eyebrows and did her hair.  On Thursday, I rested after I took my first two injections of Cosentyx.  Friday, I crashed pretty hard (thank you, MS).  On Saturday, I woke up to breakfast in bed!  Alexandria made me pancakes!  Then I went to Cookeville and spent the day with my sister.  My son brought me the most beautiful Iris flowers, a handmade card, and a gift certificate to Olive Garden.  David picked me up, and we got a takeout order from Olive Garden and sat with a beautiful view of the mountains while we ate dinner.  It was the very same view I had the morning after I became a mother for the first time.  I came home to more beautiful flowers and gifts from Alexandria and David.  Today I spent the day resting and went to town with Alexandria to grab Dairy Queen!  My bonus children sent me beautiful Snapchats this morning, wishing me a Happy Mother’s Day too!  It has been a perfect Mother’s Day!

Ashley is still shunning me, and it has been almost five months since I saw her or my grandchildren.  She didn’t call today, and when I emailed her; she told me not to email her anymore.  I was upset at first, but you know I had 24 good Mothers Days with my daughter.  If she wants to act like this, then so be it.  I carried her for nine months and raised her to be a good person.  We all know where the shunning behavior comes from, so I should not expect any better now that he is in her life.  One day she will have to live with the truth and how she treated me.  I know I love her, and I am always here with open arms if she needs me.

I am going to go snuggle up with a good book.

Much Love & Happy Mother’s Day

Tina


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