Today was 💯 compared to yesterday!
I got up and felt good and ate a little fruit. I took my medicine on schedule and went outside with my grandson. I used the fence to walk the whole back yard, and we stopped to talk to the neighbor's horses. It didn’t take long, and my drop foot hit, so I sit in my chair watching Jackson play. We listened to music, and it was so peaceful. The wind was blowing, and I felt so happy. Around noon my sister arrived with her children, and not long after, my son, Lauren, and Kai came to visit. David had set up all the bounce houses and toys, so the kids were having a blast. We had tons of fun with water play and 280 water balloons. Alexandria was in a much better mood, and she went to town and brought back pizza for everyone. Janna and the kids went home plum tuckered out, and I took a nap. Later, David and Austin ran to town for yummy Mexican food. We sat that the table and talked, just enjoying a peaceful conversation. Kai is a good eater and loved the cheese dip. After dinner, David and I watched Cars 2 with Kai and ate snickers popcorn. He fell asleep so peaceful next to his grandpa.
Austin didn’t seem surprised that I had decided to never associate with the Jehovah’s Witness cult again. I think he was expecting it after I left the mountain and wrote my autobiography. He did say my dad was coming around the music store. I didn’t know how to feel about that because my dad is still in the cult. My dad has yet to apologize to me or even attempt a relationship with Austin outside of work, so I am skeptical. I know Alexandria will never go around him or Gail again because she gave them a clean slate only to experience the heartache I lived through for 42 years. I told my children not to hold anything my dad did to me against him in their relationship. I am not one to try to influence another person to shun someone based on my experience with them unless they could cause them harm, and even then, I simply warn them. Sometimes even when people warn you, the damage is never the same for two people. I think back to how many people warned me about my ex, and I just couldn’t see it. It wasn’t until I felt the pain he inflicts did I fully understand the warning signs that I ignored.
Ashley turned down the invitation to come today. I was told she had other things to do, but I know she doesn’t want to see me. I love her, and unlike my dad, I will always be here. I know the trauma I went through as a child touched everyone who ever knew me, and unlike the criminals who hurt me, I take responsibility for my actions. I am willing to talk to anyone I hurt and make amends out of love and understanding.
Well, I hope you had a marvelous Sunday. I hope I can go to my great uncle's funeral tomorrow. This weekend has my legs feeling like silly string, but I loved every minute of it!
Love your faces
Tina
I got up and felt good and ate a little fruit. I took my medicine on schedule and went outside with my grandson. I used the fence to walk the whole back yard, and we stopped to talk to the neighbor's horses. It didn’t take long, and my drop foot hit, so I sit in my chair watching Jackson play. We listened to music, and it was so peaceful. The wind was blowing, and I felt so happy. Around noon my sister arrived with her children, and not long after, my son, Lauren, and Kai came to visit. David had set up all the bounce houses and toys, so the kids were having a blast. We had tons of fun with water play and 280 water balloons. Alexandria was in a much better mood, and she went to town and brought back pizza for everyone. Janna and the kids went home plum tuckered out, and I took a nap. Later, David and Austin ran to town for yummy Mexican food. We sat that the table and talked, just enjoying a peaceful conversation. Kai is a good eater and loved the cheese dip. After dinner, David and I watched Cars 2 with Kai and ate snickers popcorn. He fell asleep so peaceful next to his grandpa.
Austin didn’t seem surprised that I had decided to never associate with the Jehovah’s Witness cult again. I think he was expecting it after I left the mountain and wrote my autobiography. He did say my dad was coming around the music store. I didn’t know how to feel about that because my dad is still in the cult. My dad has yet to apologize to me or even attempt a relationship with Austin outside of work, so I am skeptical. I know Alexandria will never go around him or Gail again because she gave them a clean slate only to experience the heartache I lived through for 42 years. I told my children not to hold anything my dad did to me against him in their relationship. I am not one to try to influence another person to shun someone based on my experience with them unless they could cause them harm, and even then, I simply warn them. Sometimes even when people warn you, the damage is never the same for two people. I think back to how many people warned me about my ex, and I just couldn’t see it. It wasn’t until I felt the pain he inflicts did I fully understand the warning signs that I ignored.
Ashley turned down the invitation to come today. I was told she had other things to do, but I know she doesn’t want to see me. I love her, and unlike my dad, I will always be here. I know the trauma I went through as a child touched everyone who ever knew me, and unlike the criminals who hurt me, I take responsibility for my actions. I am willing to talk to anyone I hurt and make amends out of love and understanding.
Well, I hope you had a marvelous Sunday. I hope I can go to my great uncle's funeral tomorrow. This weekend has my legs feeling like silly string, but I loved every minute of it!
Love your faces
Tina
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